What Should I Do???

Today(JULY 30th), i ordered flower from my college for THAT girl....5 ROSES put inside a box...i never want to tell anyone about this but today i ask 1 of my friend...."you didn't buy flower ah?".He say "yes, maybe buy to a girl". I ask him who and then he told me....it is the same girl as me...And then i told him about me and the girl...i never wanted to tell him de...but i cannot STOP myself...we chat for a while...from my GUESSING...i think he is a little interested in that girl too....I DIRECTLY NO POWER...I don't know what to do now....i don't know how to describe the feeling inside me now...it's a feeling that i REALLY REALLY don't like...The flower that i ordered will be given to her by CHINESE SOCIETY during OGOS 20th...I hope she will like it...I know she doesn't have any feeling towards me but i will make friends with her first then show her that MY HEART TO HER IS TRUE.

I so StUpId...

I today so STUPID!!!....Today at college, we finish our PCD1 pratical class...at bus stop the girl just sit quite close to me but i didn't talk to her, instead i talk to my FRIENDS...WHY I SO STUPID!!! Then the bus came...we all gone up the bus, beside her seat got an empty space but i didn't go and sit...I also don't know why i didn't go sit...just talk to her become friend only mah...so hard meh?I REALLY REALLY TOO STUPID until no medicine can CURE!!! I MISS THIS GOOD CHANCE ALREADY....WHEN WILL HAVE THIS GOOD CHANCE AGAIN AH....This pass few days she suddenly will reply me again in MSN o...i also don't know why...but SMS she still no reply..."GOD" i need just another chance...just GIVE me another chance...i will really really cherish it de...please....

Suggestion...

Today i talk to 1 of my LECTURER about the situation i am in, the feeling i am feeling now...for short, i told him about me and the girl... He ask me to put studies as PRIMARY...after i finish my studies i can start chase the girl...i told him i cannot control my emotions, my feeling, he say i can, i just have to try...but to be honest...i can't!!! I am a guy that blindly follows what my heart tells me to do...i am not that kind of people that will think THIS think THAT and then just DO...Today i saw her but she didn't saw me, i saw her like very tired....so i sms her and ask what happen to her...she didn't even reply me...i was sad...i was very very sad...I tried to give myself an explanation,"MAYBE SHE TIRED","MAYBE SHE BUSY","MAYBE SHE SICK" but not 1 explanation can make me feel better...I AM LOST IN THE WIND OF LOVE...

Sad Moment

This is how i am feeling now...sad...i meet a girl..that i LOVE...i dare to use LOVE this word because my heart tells me that i really LOVE her..i am now trying to chase her...but i think i will fail...because the respond that she gave me. At first,we chat through sms and then msn, we chat like a friend...and then a few weeks later...she become colder and colder towards me...it seems like she knew that i want to chase her. When we meet at college, we pretend like we don't know each other, haiz...what should i do now? I am now really really sad...the feeling of BITTER and SOUR surrounding my HEART now...no matter how hard i try not to think, no matter how hard i try to forget...the image of the GIRL keeps on floating back to my mind...it really makes me feel sad~~~the feeling of BITTER and SOUR will be my friend at that time...I really don't like this feeling. I would like her to accept me into her heart, don't push ME away like that...The only way and the only person that can pull me out of this sad moment will be that GIRL only...I know i can't force her to accept me, but i really really do hope that she can give me 1 chance to prove my LOVE.My friend tell me that FATE will help, but i felt FATE is toying with me. I pray to "月老" that please help me on this...